Slap me hard

I lived my life to please all the significant ones but inside,
I am actually suffering.

harder than examinations
stresser than school

I cried 2 times over this.
It is leading nowhere.
All that I have been receiving are just empty talks and stresses.
I haven’t got much time left.
Stress level increase simultaneously as day passes by.

I just hit 20 not long ago.
I don’t deserve all this.
Really.

Tell me, who can actually understand this?