Story of my life: Adeline Sim

Sometimes when I am reminded of my pace, I will stop and think for a moment.

And when I stop, I can’t help but think of Adel. I wonder how is my little Angel doing now. Even though my life seems to be very colorful on my social media platforms, but people who are really close to me will know deep down, I am still trying to accept the fact that she is no longer with us.

Case is somewhat closed after a good 3.5 years but the wounds? Nope, not healing at all. I still wish for some karma to happen to X. In my clearest point of view, he don’t deserve to be alive and living his life as if nothing happened at all. I know I can’t say or curse someone that way, but hey, take it with a pinch of salt. I am only a grieving sister.

As I move on to another phase of life, there are so many things I want her to know and I want to keep her updated with my life. We used to have little conversations at night. Now I guess, I’ll only have to make do with chatting with her in my heart and my mind.

Right now, I want to share with her that girl…

The last car you sat in, the first time I drove you around when I got my driving license, the last car you know you about our family, is now gone. There was only 2 years left so we had to change to a new car. The laughters and quarrels we had inside, so intense and so memorable. My heart sank when they took the car away. It was like losing a part of you to them.



Good news is… We traded in the car and topped up for a new Nissan Qashqai.

The car is here right now and  I wished you were still around cause it would probably be my turn to be the passenger cause I remembered you wanting to pick up driving just months before you left.



I also dyed my hair purple for the second time at Black Hair Salon. If it was 3.5 years ago, you would have called me an ah lian. But colors are the latest trend right now and I am really really digging the hair right now. I remembered complaining to you how much I hated purple, orange and green but funnily, purple is one of my favourite at the moment. I miss your thick and shiny black hair which I had always wanted.





Amazingly, the purple Casio TR60 caught my attention too. I wished you were here to take all the stupid funny looking selfies/wefies with me again. That’s what we do best. And secretly, I hate taking wefies with you in the past because you always looked way better than me. But girl… I would give anything to take a picture with you again, anything.



Lastly, here’s a picture of me before you left and look at me now. I lost so much weight after your departure and has never been able to put on weight like before again.



Thank you for watching us from above all these while my girl. Deeply loved and missed by our parents and I.

My heart can’t take it and I can’t pen down anymore. Till then.