FQYTHM

The title of this entry is not nonsense. It is a sentence.
Go figure it out if you wants to know it.

I am not one who puts up with anger.
I only put up with sadness.
I tried to suppressed everything, but the more I try, the more unfair I feel.

I am seriously fcuked up with everything.

so much so much so much that I don’t even feel like contacting anyone from XXXX.

If I want yours, I would have take everything back 3months ago.
Why would I be so stupid to wait for 3months when I know that eventually,
It is still yours that I am taking?

Even if you are Miss/Mr Nice,
Even if you wants to help your friend,
Even if you wants to defend your friend,

WHY MUST I BE THE ONE AT THE LOSING END?
I AM NOT NICE.
WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH ME?

If I didn’t spare a thought for you, I would not have waited.
If I didn’t spare a thought for you, I would not give you time.

IF I CONTINUE TO SPARE A THOUGHT FOR YOU,
WHO WILL SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME?

YOUR FUCKING GOOD FRIENDS?

Only they are pitiful, but not me, not YOU?.
You need to clean up the mess that they had created.

PLEASE, I don’t need to be pitied. & Neither does your friends needs to.
CAUSE THEY DESERVED IT!
BUT AFTER ALL THE SHIT THAT I HAVE DONE, HELPED, ORDERED, COLLECTED,
And all I get is all these?

It is NOT your fault I know, But why are you shielding those at fault then?!
FRIENDS? SO? AND THEN ME?

I know I shouldn’t blog this, but I see no point keeping it to myself.
You can check with K how UPSET I am with this stupid issue.

I appreciate everything you had done and I remember all the good stuffs about you.
But this and that, they are 2 different issues.

BLAME IT ON THEM THAT I RATHER ISOLATE MYSELF FROM XXXX NOW.
& I am very much happier this way.